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My last blogpost for this month.

1) channel sadness into motivation to play games or study
2) go out and parkour with chandra
3)chat with housemates and treat them candies,see them smile and feel happy
4)play with mini fountain on table
5)listen music
6)help out in ictc
7)go out and have a drink and sit at lake
8)sleep and think that it will be all-right the nextday
9)hold pillow and lie on bed dreaming
10)disturb housemates
11)Think that she will reply back
12)Don’t give a f*** about other peoples feeling and do own stuff(last resort)

I waited but i did not get any response..guess i have to move on with my life. Even though u like a girl very much,but if she doesn’t like u,its better to give up and be sad for a few days or weeks..and then hope ur heart is cured.impatient?…well…i got nothing much to say..just can’t write what am i feeling right now…imagine u really like a person very much..u done anything u could do just get her attention and make her happy…but in the end…its meaningless.

hehehehehehehehehehahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaahahhaha…………..what to do? this is life…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..and life will just end like this one day……………….! <<die

lately..when i came back from redang i read the newspaper that china was hit by an earthquake, and mynmar hit by cyclone. Many people died…children especially, still so young. Few days ago, i read the star newspaper and i saw a chinese boy holding a saline bag for his friend whose half body is trapped under the rubble. That picture was indeed really touching,it shows what true friendship really is..thats what i feel. Many young children died in china,and parents who have high hopes in their children to bring them a better future is gone. same goes to the poeple in mynmar. People of malaysia, brothers and sisters…even though we may seem busy…at least we pray for their parents who lost their chilld or relatives.

To the soldiers of china,

Every sound you hear below you,
it means there is still hope,
Every stone you remove,
you are reaching closer to the people below,
Every time you bring sumone out,
it brings hope to the people who are still looking for their missing person,
Every sweat you sweat,
it means you have tried your best,
Every time your hand hurts,
it means you are doing all the best you can to save them,
Every people you see grieving over the loss of their love ones,
it doesn’t mean you have failed to save them,
don’t give up, there are many souls left to be saved.

haiz..dunno what am i writing,,,just write…english cacat like hell….haiz…life is really short..that is why must really make good use of it….spend your time with your love ones..like papa and mama…anything can happen.

Dear blog,
i have been wanting to blog so much when i was at pulau perhentian. On that island, i feel that i was being cut off from my city life, such peace, but at the same time dun have internet…suffer le..haha. There GOT internet but its 30sen per minute…=.= freakin expensive. I went there together with my 2 of my best friends.One of them was my ex-roomate and the other was my 3rd brother(hong yee).Tickets to kelantan was expensive also..Rm30.80. sakit sakit….now i have to babysit my wallet for days…feed it money.The entire trip- i spent about Rm500, Rm350 was for the chalet and the package. Took nearly 8 hours to reach kelantan by bus,and sleeping on the bus is almost impossible due to some idiots who dun know how to switch off their phone….haiz..so inconsiderate.TYPICAL MALAYSIANS. have to hear that lame baby music ringtone the whole night. Kelantan is indeed a nice place to be…but evry single stall,shops and etc..are dominated by muslims.They are nice people^^…especially the malay food there…very difrent from KL.Mamamiya….the curry chicken..taste so good and the keropok lekor…most fishy taste than KL(put more flour)=.=. First, my friend picked me and my brother by car to his house and then ate our breakfast at a malay stall and then headed straight for Kuala besut.Then we took a speedboat to perhentian, so so fun…every time the speedboat goes pass a wave..we would be flying for about 1 sec or sumtimes..1.5sec..the longer we stay midair..the boys in the boat suffer(hehe..when the boat lands…ouch…if sit at the wrong position,golf balls hurts XD)..took about 30 minutes to reach perhentian and we were greeted by our tourist guide..ah long( a skinny black Chinese with a cute face and fluent kelantanese malay). We thought he was a malay until he started talking chinese to us…very funny guy especially when he smiles. The water there was kinda clean compared to port dickson. Ah long than lead us to our chalet…a classic room but with air conditioner and a mini fridge. When i was at the room, i felt that i wanted to sms her, but dang, no line…digi..u let me down again(where is that yellow guy who follow digi users around)…wanna wack the yellow guy so so much…"i will follow you"…lolz…yaya not everywhere. Later we went snorkeling,actually its my first time in a deep sea(not really)…hate it when salt water enters your eyes…argh…the burning sensation and if it enters ur lungs..wow…pain like hell..suffer for awhile…the worst is when my friend hold me down hard when i haven’t catch enough breath…force to take in saltwater. The fishes were kinda scared and a bit playful, they love to swim around my leg and like peck(do fishes peck?) on my wound…make me feel itchy..tried to catch them but can’t even with the bread on my hand. if got net..haha…die lo..i will add the fishes to my bbq list…hmm…fried NEMO’s(clown fish),Fried DORY(blue fish), and other cute small little fishies in da sea =). The first day was kinda tiring..so we slept early. DAY 2- woke up at around 6.00 am then we took our breakfast…(toasted bread with butter,scrambled eggs,beans, and nice cup of tea)…tried to look around for siganl so can sms..but cannot…i told my friend that i confessed to her and i was still waiting for her reply. so they asked me to send her a message asking her whether has she made her decision…sounds kinda desperate..but my friend says its the best way….hope so. Day 2 is sumtin like day 1..snorkeling,beach babes(not much but made us bleed to death when one walks past…guys eyes…are sumhow diffrent from girls..u need to feed em too..lolz…=.=).Saw sea urchins and big big oysters and sea cucumbers(ah long dive down and picked one for us to see…squirts water out..XD). Then we went to redang island, the water there is much cleaner than perhentian, more people, but more dead corals on the shore. Even saw a huge boat bring more than 50-60 people to the island…the boat design kinda look like the D-DAY boat..dunno wats D-DAY(google it:P)…bought some things from the gift shop..and choosing the gifts was the hardest part..i was really choosy when picking the gifts for her..friends got irritated. Bought the most for her…really hope she will like it…most of the gifts have turtle drawings or shapes on it. I love to call her turtle also….haha..for some reason..dunno whether she love to be called that.We went snorkeling most of the time and stop by some other beaches…at one island..my friend buried me under the sand and made some fake sand boobs and ahem…stick d@#$…lame but fun..haha..went back to perhentian at 5pm and then played beach football with some malay people..our team won…cuz me and my fren are super pro^^. Actually the entire stay at the beach..was thinking about her…really really miss her..haiz….oh no…have to go now…mom’s calling..

Dear blog kinda miss you so i wanna blog again:P,
Well…i was looking forward to this day since i booked the ticket back home with the girl that i like. Was so so excited when she agreed to take the bus back with me to KL.I even went to buy the bus ticket alone…i also dunno why. After buying the ticket, questions start popping in my head "will she cancel to go back kl wit me?", "will she say "sorry i decided to stay back"?" and etc. So on that that friday..i woke up so early even the monkeys in the house are still sleeping..haha..:P..got dressed and then i woke chandra up…he is my hairstylist for that day..i use to use gel to spike my hair..but chndra recommended me to use wax. He made my hair look kinda natural and nice, while iyngran was in charge of my attire…well i pick up fav clothes and iyngran decided that my clothes is way too simple..so he decide to modify it..but unfortunatey..i stick to my choice. Left the hostel at around 9 am and reach old town kampar at around 9.30 am. That morning i really feel relaxed and excited. so i went to a nearby bread shop and grab a sandwich and a  packet drink. She cam e at exactly 10 am…then she smsed me saying she already reached….i was chomping down my sandwich like a monster when the msg arrive…i started to get nervous a bit…cuz at that time my mouth was full with sandwich..so i smed her and told her that i was at one of the bus station office….that moment i just feel that sumone was looking at me..so i turn back and i saw her…she was holding her phone..and looking straight at me….(luckily i gulped down that big part of sandwich or else i will look like a hamster keeping kuachi seeds in my mouth.)…its been almost 4 months since we went out together…and she looks almost the same but cuter:P..most of the time i only focus on her eyes and i actually kinda forget wat she wear on that day…zzz. Realizing that i was eating the sandwich by my own…i felt kinda bad..so i asked her whether she had taken her breakfast..and then she said no and i took her to the bread shop that i just went. she bought the same sandwich as me…and well..we ended both munching on our sandwich. well she ate faster than me…lolz.
we then chatted till the bus come…and during the journey to KL..i talked about my housemates…and she did talk a lot too about herself,exams, and etc. I booked a sit for two people but the person gave me a ticket that sat beside each other but with a big gap n between..i dun really mind about that but as long as i keep her speaking and telling more about herself.As usual, i talke the most..and i blabbered  a lot of  my stories…i was always telling myself" lawrence u talk too much, just let her talk" well…she did talk..quite a lot on that day and i notice that she smiled a lot on that day…everytime she smiled, i jst felt happy, really really happy. WE reached K at about 1.30 pm and took a bus to Mid valley…cuz she told me in the bus that she miss Ronald mcdonald(the clown with bid red shoes,i use to have shoes exactly like ronald when i was a kid) a lot….i mean mcdonalds. i ordered big mac for her and for myself too…we talked about one of our friends…known as the tomato ketchup monster. i can’t really tell much here but at that time..i just felt like telling her sumting…that i have kept so long..but the inner me was saying" lawrence she will slap you and stuff that BIG MAC into ur mouth and walk away". so i did not confess to her. >.<…after that we went tto the arcade center to play the game we played lastime…dun really remember the name of that FPS game..but it requires teamwork…she is kinda good in games but well i am sumhow better than her(maybe…hehe)..then the remaing coins, i told her to choose which softtoy she wanted to get in one of the gaming machines..for 4 times i tried but the darn machine wun get the softtoy out..i felt bad cuz i did not get what she wanted..i really wanted to continue but i know the harder i try will only make me a dumb guy in front of her(seriosly..i played that game many times in my life and never even win ONCE..crap=.=)…we later went bowling but we have to waot for quite some time….cuz there was too many people…i remember shhe was telling a joke and it made me laugh..but forget wat was it adey..lol..i bought 2 games so we could like play longer. Her shoes was kinda tiny…i mean something like Cinderella shoes..quite small while mine was the size of big foot…during the first round..she missed a lot..all masuk longkang..haha including me also but only one lucky strike shot..every time i hold the bowling ball…i was prying" hope she doesn’t feel bored"..
until now i dun really know how she was feeling at that moment..but she just played like normal..but i think she was feeling kinda bored…i should have throw myself to the pins and make her laugh…=.=. everytime she misses, i would always praise her to go for another shot..cuz i really didn’t want her to feel bored. She did win me by a few points during mid game but i won at the last part=.=..shyt..i dun wanna win actually..i wanted her to win. Well after that we went back to mcd and i treated her wit ice cream…again i got the feeling of telling her how i feel but i kept myslef from saying it. I was not scared to tell her..but scared of the consequences..like friendship will be gone so suddenly..my fellings towards is growing since the first time i saw her at the math’s class. Actually wanetd to take her to watch movie, but her mom called her up so she had to go. When she was leaving, i was saying to myself "lawrence u just missed a once in a lifetime chance to tell her ur feelings, and u can just forget about it,sume other guys will take her"..well my mood changed so rapidly until  i even had no mod to go home..so i walked around mid valley for awhile and toook a bus straight home. When i reached home, i just decided to took the final decision to tell her how i feel, welll i did…and when i was waiting for a reply..my heart was punding so freakin fast that i wanted to just reach in and just stop it. she replied that she will see first. I did feel a little dissapointed and a bit happy though…now i am just waiting for her decision. I dun really want to think more about it but i  just hope for the best. i dun even know did i really did the right thing or was i too fast?….maybe becuz i seldom see her and alomost evry single day will be thinking about her…love is blind…but to me..this case really diffrent…tired adey…feel like wanna sleep now…bye blog..maybe write more again tomorrow.

hiya..once again..i am updating my lame blog that no one reads..
Dear blog,
This sure is one best semester in my entire life and also the worst. Yesterday just finished all of my exams..felt much better but still suffering from the side effects of not sleeping for almost 3 days. In this semester, many things happen…many bad and good things. I even get to know my roommate darkest secret…haha…wun post it here..XD..most of our housemates share the pain and sweet memories together.
one of my best friends even broke up with his girlfriend..they really look like a couple which can’t be separated..but still…DAMN…the girl started it. My friend cried over her for a few days…i knew that he loved her very much just by doing a face reading..that pain i have even felt it before..very pain and unbearable..losing sumone who meant so much to you..so so so much. haiz…we spent days trying to cheer him ip and indeed our efforts paid off…he was back to his usual normal…but much active like before..like a monkey..=.=. We even have small fights in our house..sumtin like dislike each others habits and the way we talk to one another…haha..my roommate gets pissed off everytime after eating finish my lunch..i will throw my lunchbox in the thrash..he said i have to fold it and then throw..haha..guess i am still trying my best to change my habit. Our housemate sam..also have minor changes on him eversince some people in our hose started ignoring him because indulge too much in games(DOTA)..=.=..haiz…anyway this problem is solved..we were back to our usual happy go luck monkeys of 1519 =). haha. sam is a very good person and somehow sensitive..same like me too^^…but we can overcome our problems easily..cuz we are superman of 1519. Chandra is like a brother to me…the things he do sumtimes really touched me..really really grateful for wat he has done. he just wakes up in the middle of the night just to make me a cup of coffee and encourage me to study. as for my roomate candy…haha..he is a funny guy although serious at times..and sumtimes cute…he is one of the best roommates i ever had..very understanding person and loving also…like anothe close brother to me. oh ya and one more thing he is like our KETUA KEBERSIHAN of our house…haha..Basically in our whole house 1519..we are always GAY..YEA GAY..means happy la. Sanjaya is like a wise man…ask him anything related to DOTA..and poof u get ur answer…he is also a very caring and understanding..he is another brother of mine who stays up late at night..to play games or watch hentai anime..haha no la…Bleach. Iyngran…zzz, more like a younger brother to me..haha..we love to tease and irritate poepl in the house especially winston and Ong(Datuk 1519). Ong is more like a father to me..not exactly it depends on the situation..sometimes he gives really good advise to me..but sometimes is just crap..lol…a very good person with humor..as for Q..he is more like a close brother also..except for his LAME attitude…the laugh and the smile he always give me when he feels he is the king of dota..zzzz..nice guy with a 50cent haircut..haha. As for me, well…i really changed a lot this semester..especially the way i speak..i wish i could be like my old self…did badly in this semester..haiz..my mood is changing rapidly this semester this year…anyway the next semester i will be a diffrent person…^^..i will go back to My LORD whom i have ignored for so long…i am reallly looking ahead of my next semester..A NEW ME, A NEW SUPERMAN. better make sure it happens…bye blog..it will be a long time i will update you again..sobs..