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Dear blog kinda miss you so i wanna blog again:P,
Well…i was looking forward to this day since i booked the ticket back home with the girl that i like. Was so so excited when she agreed to take the bus back with me to KL.I even went to buy the bus ticket alone…i also dunno why. After buying the ticket, questions start popping in my head "will she cancel to go back kl wit me?", "will she say "sorry i decided to stay back"?" and etc. So on that that friday..i woke up so early even the monkeys in the house are still sleeping..haha..:P..got dressed and then i woke chandra up…he is my hairstylist for that day..i use to use gel to spike my hair..but chndra recommended me to use wax. He made my hair look kinda natural and nice, while iyngran was in charge of my attire…well i pick up fav clothes and iyngran decided that my clothes is way too simple..so he decide to modify it..but unfortunatey..i stick to my choice. Left the hostel at around 9 am and reach old town kampar at around 9.30 am. That morning i really feel relaxed and excited. so i went to a nearby bread shop and grab a sandwich and a  packet drink. She cam e at exactly 10 am…then she smsed me saying she already reached….i was chomping down my sandwich like a monster when the msg arrive…i started to get nervous a bit…cuz at that time my mouth was full with sandwich..so i smed her and told her that i was at one of the bus station office….that moment i just feel that sumone was looking at me..so i turn back and i saw her…she was holding her phone..and looking straight at me….(luckily i gulped down that big part of sandwich or else i will look like a hamster keeping kuachi seeds in my mouth.)…its been almost 4 months since we went out together…and she looks almost the same but cuter:P..most of the time i only focus on her eyes and i actually kinda forget wat she wear on that day…zzz. Realizing that i was eating the sandwich by my own…i felt kinda bad..so i asked her whether she had taken her breakfast..and then she said no and i took her to the bread shop that i just went. she bought the same sandwich as me…and well..we ended both munching on our sandwich. well she ate faster than me…lolz.
we then chatted till the bus come…and during the journey to KL..i talked about my housemates…and she did talk a lot too about herself,exams, and etc. I booked a sit for two people but the person gave me a ticket that sat beside each other but with a big gap n between..i dun really mind about that but as long as i keep her speaking and telling more about herself.As usual, i talke the most..and i blabbered  a lot of  my stories…i was always telling myself" lawrence u talk too much, just let her talk" well…she did talk..quite a lot on that day and i notice that she smiled a lot on that day…everytime she smiled, i jst felt happy, really really happy. WE reached K at about 1.30 pm and took a bus to Mid valley…cuz she told me in the bus that she miss Ronald mcdonald(the clown with bid red shoes,i use to have shoes exactly like ronald when i was a kid) a lot….i mean mcdonalds. i ordered big mac for her and for myself too…we talked about one of our friends…known as the tomato ketchup monster. i can’t really tell much here but at that time..i just felt like telling her sumting…that i have kept so long..but the inner me was saying" lawrence she will slap you and stuff that BIG MAC into ur mouth and walk away". so i did not confess to her. >.<…after that we went tto the arcade center to play the game we played lastime…dun really remember the name of that FPS game..but it requires teamwork…she is kinda good in games but well i am sumhow better than her(maybe…hehe)..then the remaing coins, i told her to choose which softtoy she wanted to get in one of the gaming machines..for 4 times i tried but the darn machine wun get the softtoy out..i felt bad cuz i did not get what she wanted..i really wanted to continue but i know the harder i try will only make me a dumb guy in front of her(seriosly..i played that game many times in my life and never even win ONCE..crap=.=)…we later went bowling but we have to waot for quite some time….cuz there was too many people…i remember shhe was telling a joke and it made me laugh..but forget wat was it adey..lol..i bought 2 games so we could like play longer. Her shoes was kinda tiny…i mean something like Cinderella shoes..quite small while mine was the size of big foot…during the first round..she missed a lot..all masuk longkang..haha including me also but only one lucky strike shot..every time i hold the bowling ball…i was prying" hope she doesn’t feel bored"..
until now i dun really know how she was feeling at that moment..but she just played like normal..but i think she was feeling kinda bored…i should have throw myself to the pins and make her laugh…=.=. everytime she misses, i would always praise her to go for another shot..cuz i really didn’t want her to feel bored. She did win me by a few points during mid game but i won at the last part=.=..shyt..i dun wanna win actually..i wanted her to win. Well after that we went back to mcd and i treated her wit ice cream…again i got the feeling of telling her how i feel but i kept myslef from saying it. I was not scared to tell her..but scared of the consequences..like friendship will be gone so suddenly..my fellings towards is growing since the first time i saw her at the math’s class. Actually wanetd to take her to watch movie, but her mom called her up so she had to go. When she was leaving, i was saying to myself "lawrence u just missed a once in a lifetime chance to tell her ur feelings, and u can just forget about it,sume other guys will take her"..well my mood changed so rapidly until  i even had no mod to go home..so i walked around mid valley for awhile and toook a bus straight home. When i reached home, i just decided to took the final decision to tell her how i feel, welll i did…and when i was waiting for a reply..my heart was punding so freakin fast that i wanted to just reach in and just stop it. she replied that she will see first. I did feel a little dissapointed and a bit happy though…now i am just waiting for her decision. I dun really want to think more about it but i  just hope for the best. i dun even know did i really did the right thing or was i too fast?….maybe becuz i seldom see her and alomost evry single day will be thinking about her…love is blind…but to me..this case really diffrent…tired adey…feel like wanna sleep now…bye blog..maybe write more again tomorrow.