MY DAILY BLOG

I remembered the day i first saw you,
you were late for the first math class,
the moment i saw you i felt a strange feeling,
a feeling felt like it was just a puppy love,
i tried many ways just to get to know you,
i went through many hard times just to try to get your attention,
the feeling kept growing and growing until one day i think about you,
the feeling was different which i don’t know then only until now,
i always wanted to show how much i love you,
but sometimes i just can’t because i was to shy and try to act cool,
your first birthday i celebrated with you means a lot to me,
i just wanted you to know that i am really glad to meet a person so gentle, sweet, and God has created such a wonderful person like you,
Every single thing that i have done for you is to show that i had something to give you at the bottom of my heart,
so i couldn’t take it anymore,
i poured my feelings out to you on that day,
i knew it was too fast for you,
i am sorry, i did not think about your feelings,
then i noticed that you started feeling uncomfortable,
i was heartbroken when you said you only like me as a friend,
but i still felt happy inside because as least we are friends,
the way i said it to sounds like i love you temporarily and just wanted a short term companion,
but no it was sincere and i just don’t know how to tell you,
that is why my love waited for you until now,
I lock my heart to only you,
and it was kept in the darkness hoping for that special someone to unlock my heart,
i suffer internally just waiting for you,
sometimes the pain is just unbearable so i just let my tears roll out every night before i sleep,

sometime i laugh,smile and talk to you because i wanted you to know do you ever like me more than a friend?
it makes me wonder whether I am doing the right thing sitting quietly and waiting for you to reply me,
I know this may sound childish,foolish and coward,
if only i could be just given one more chance.