MY DAILY BLOG

Dear blogy,

Its me again. Why the weird title..well have been addicted to Armin Van buuren’s trance techno’s lately..been hearing all the episodes from 371-373. A good song for calming my body, mind and soul. Those wana know how trance techno sounds like, u can go to this link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHUn3AWOw8k&feature=related

Been working for a week now, time really seems to move really slow when at work, waiting for the clock to reach 6pm is just like waiting for leaves to grow back on a tree during winter. Its long, and most of the time boring. Although the job i chose, is my interest..but there is not much to do…i wanna play with the cables, wanna learn more about Cisco switches. Studying it online, and not doing any practical training is just……….sad. real sad. On the way back today, i saw a rainbow…a big one…i never seen such a fully formed rainbow only when i was around 6 years old. haiz….not much interesting stories to tell during the holidays.

I remembered the day i first saw you,
you were late for the first math class,
the moment i saw you i felt a strange feeling,
a feeling felt like it was just a puppy love,
i tried many ways just to get to know you,
i went through many hard times just to try to get your attention,
the feeling kept growing and growing until one day i think about you,
the feeling was different which i don’t know then only until now,
i always wanted to show how much i love you,
but sometimes i just can’t because i was to shy and try to act cool,
your first birthday i celebrated with you means a lot to me,
i just wanted you to know that i am really glad to meet a person so gentle, sweet, and God has created such a wonderful person like you,
Every single thing that i have done for you is to show that i had something to give you at the bottom of my heart,
so i couldn’t take it anymore,
i poured my feelings out to you on that day,
i knew it was too fast for you,
i am sorry, i did not think about your feelings,
then i noticed that you started feeling uncomfortable,
i was heartbroken when you said you only like me as a friend,
but i still felt happy inside because as least we are friends,
the way i said it to sounds like i love you temporarily and just wanted a short term companion,
but no it was sincere and i just don’t know how to tell you,
that is why my love waited for you until now,
I lock my heart to only you,
and it was kept in the darkness hoping for that special someone to unlock my heart,
i suffer internally just waiting for you,
sometimes the pain is just unbearable so i just let my tears roll out every night before i sleep,

sometime i laugh,smile and talk to you because i wanted you to know do you ever like me more than a friend?
it makes me wonder whether I am doing the right thing sitting quietly and waiting for you to reply me,
I know this may sound childish,foolish and coward,
if only i could be just given one more chance.

Heya blog,

The taiping trip was great,the committee members did their job well in organizing places to go to and ensuring safety of every student. At first, i thought of avoiding her the entire trip, why? because i wanted to forget her because i dun think i have a chance of getting her. It was kinda painful,every time i walk pass her without saying hi or even eye contact…thats why i preferred to sit alone in the bus and rethink my actions. I also noticed that yeechan was also very close to her and i dun think she cares if i ignored her. That was when i was EMO. Only on the 2nd day, we went up to bukit larut,the place was kinda nice,its few hundred meters above sea level…around 700+. The scnery was breathtaking and peaceful..but the peaceful presence was disturbed by students shouting…”take a picture of me..take a picture of me”. Was one of them too. I didn’t notice any pine trees around the area cuz i was too busy searching for her when i just reached the top. Basically she looks happy through out the trip…mine is sad happy..happy happy..sad sad..sad… lame. chandra found a pine cone and handed it to me..i than though back about my grandfather when he was alive…me and my cousins was in a hotel at frazers hill. I love to collect em..cuz of the pines unique shape and
the woody touchy feeling of it. I tried searching around the area for pine cones for her…i only found 2 at first. One was ugly and the other was very beautiful. was really happy when i found it…man that was one of the most perfect good looking cones u can ever get….i wish i can add it in my colections..hehe. So i took the cones and washed it..as i was walking down the stairs,jing jing notice the cones.and she like the cone…so i gaved that to her cuz she is a good girl and my good fren too. She kinda look very happy when i said i gave it to her..she look like a chipmunk obsessed with cones..lol..jokin. After that went to hunt for another,and i found one below a rock..nice and in perfect conditions…no algae growing on it. washed it again and try to build up my courage to give it to her. when reach the bottom of bukit larut…i handed her the cone…i didn’t look at her at all…but at that time..i really thought that i look really childish to hand her the cone..so i just walked away..just hoping that she liked it..i was really hoping that she say sumtin at that time…but i din hear anythin. Kinda feel really bad at that time because i wished i had more cones to give it to her friends as well but i just want her to know that the cone is specially just for her. When i was in the bus…monica came up to me and handed me a mineral water bottle and said bonnie gave this to you..kinda surprised and happy….but i nearly said WTH..when i saw 2 tadpoles swimming in it…was really gonna drink the water if i sat back on my seat..luckily monica told me.. Seriously this is the best gift of my life…….i was so freakin happy until i forget to thank monica. I took care of the tadpoles until it reached safely in kampar. Hope i can rear it until it becomes a frog then i can show it to her….hmmm…still wondering what tadpoles eat…=.= Anyway shes having a quiz tomorrow,wish her all the best.

Dear blog blog^^,
9.51pm…candy and sanjaya still sleeping since 7.30pm….both sleeping like a baby..candy wrapped his whole body in my comforter…sanjaya sleeping on candy’s bed also wrap around with candy’s confortor. super sien…programming sux lately but i understand more. Last week was a massive funeral day, many of them died,lack of oxygen,some infected with white spots,got killed by others. so sad=(..wondering who is that? yep its ong’s fishes…he spend lots of money in beautifying his fish tank with colorful gold fishes,some weird guppies who love to fight(especially the black tailed ones). Most of the time, i can see ong sitting in front of the fish tank watching his cute little puny friends swimming or so called posing(especially ong’s mini tortoise). Both tortoise are cute but one is dumb, the other is intelligent…well talking about tortoise reminds me of someone..=)……………………(system reboot)………..oh ya back to the topic..sometimes i see ong sitting alone beside his fish tank and relax….looks like he seem lonely sometimes…but i noticed that he really take care of his fishes…although sometimes he plays around with them(holding them for a few seconds in the air..and looking at them..put them in a pot full of water and the water is still spinning).happens when he change the water of his aquarium. Bought Ong and Cm a thingy to put in their fish tank too..one of em is a windmill and the other is a mini house….well..i did really feel ong really love to see the wind mill spinning. As for Cm, he loves to see his mini guppies and prawns swimming around the mini house. I used to rear small prawns when i was in primary..take em out and let them walk on the table..some can walk and some can’t…haiz…lately many fishes dying…. F*** must be the water in kampar…some shit stuff in it…all ong’s friends dying one by one…but he also replace 2 by 2…ong said this:”when one fish die,i replace it with 2 or 3 more la”…but sometimes when one of his gold fishes is about to die..he will try his best to save em..how? yep..he send his fishes to the ICU..a medium sized bowl and then puts some blue solution. He did save some goldfish before..at least 2 or 1. He also killed some,wanted his friends to visit LALA land in heaven…the situation at 1519 now is kinda normal..except a few things…..downloading to freakin much, and etc…OO sanjaya just moved after 2 and a half hours..hehe..hugging candy’s pillow now…diao..sien adey la…go play game or read book…tata blog

Hearing the calm and soothing flow of the river water,feeling the fresh air of the jungle…*hey puki,lets go* sumone said…turned and saw datuk(king of all turtles)..its time to leave BUKIT LARUT…sob…only spend a few minutes there…so many place to explore. well datuk fetched us there on the 5th of july 2008. The reason why we came here is to survey the area for good hotels and places to eat and explore. The hotel that we found is heaven…so near a very beautiful graveyard for fallen heroes during world war 2. The best is near to the jungle. Can’t wait to go there,well CM and ong was kinda busy asking out prices per night in each hotel..cm was also busy socializing with the monkeys in the jungle,kelvin scanning for babes,a sing ong’s bodyguard,and me taking pictures and jumpin around. Took about 1 and a half’s hour to reach there by ong’s super car,a beautiful white car and filled with several cute and adorable KUMA KUMA’s. After visiting bukit larut,we visited the museum,a very small and old museum but the coolest thing is an old fighter plane standing majestically in front of the museum…looks cool but it will be more cooler if i am in it. we didn’t really explore the museum..just only the outside and a bit of the inside…before we leave the museum…we bought ice cream….in KL…they usually use scoops to put the ice cream on the cone..but this in taiping…its mini rectangular boxes. When we were eating ice cream,ong and kelvin’s babe radar picked up signals just 30m away from there,there stood a young teenager who is guiding tadika kids to go in the museum. Datuk challenged kelvin to take a picture with her and even her phone number,kelvin felt shy at first…but he really got the b@lls and eventually get to take a pic with her and even her phone number..if i can just that photo from kelvin i may post it up here^^. After the museum,we went to the town,wanted to eat MCD but ended up with eating char kueh teow at some hotel called “peace hotel”(i think so)…very nice. especially the pork rolls ong ordered. then later ice kacang…..almost the same taste as kl la….but the feeling of being in taiping for the first time adds a kick to the ice kacang. lazy to write adey…dunno why no mood suddenly…din go church today..lazy and woke up late.

REPORT ON VISIT TO TAIPING
Place:Wonderful
Food:Good
Human population:a lot
BABES: negative
Cleanliness:below average or average
Transport:wonderful(ong’s car)
Tour guide: Lame but funny =.= (ong and cm)
passengers:Beware of gays(in the car)
For more information, please call Datuk Ong and Chandra mohan.

BAD THINGS THAT HAPPEN IN SEMESTER2
forgot the date adey…that night was suppose to be a party to those who help out in kah yee’s src team. Well,the whole day i was just thinking about heineken..the beer that i like(BUT I HATE BEERS NOW!!)..i bet with ben during my duty and i loss to him one small bottle of heineken…Rm7.80 gone just like that.=.= before the party started our whole house helped out with cleaning the place..ong bought 4 crates of beer…ben bought 2 red wine(not cheap wan la…dunno why some of my housemates say cheap…lolXD). After that we set up the speakers…my speakers combined with candy’s speakers….must better and louder. An indian girl was the first to came followed by kah yee….and the rest. I waited for quite long before i eat cuz was downloading trance techno songs…i love armin van buuren songs. The mee taste very nice to me,cuz i was damn hungry…kelvin passed me the first cup of “beer”(i thought it was pure beer but actually it was a mixture of beer,whiskey,and coke). *CUP NUMBER 1*. Abang Ben came,went upstairs and i brought him one bottle of beer, then he also pleaded me to have one bottle of beer with him.*BOTTLE NUMBER 1*..the first bottle was ok…evertyhing seems calm…but my body gets hotter every 5-10 minutes. I stayed in top in front of my computer playing games..and then suddenly..pop…b0nn13..forwards an email to me…i was semi drunk at that time….and then i remembered all the stupid stuf i did for her..so i got emotional.went down to drink the 2nd bottle *BOTTLE NUMBER 2.*.was told to stay upstairs by iyngran..but i did not listen…so finished the 2nd bottle..i was 60% drunk…Ong handed me a can full of liquor*CUP NUMBER 2*…i just took it and drink a lot…then after a few moments..i felt as though i can’t walk properly…i saw iyngran,ong,kah yee,ben laughing a lot….like clowns. i remembered i was told to sit down and take pictures with them….then i talk a lot of bullshyt to the people around me. I think i said a lot of bad stuff…cuz i am bad. so well…i got drunk…i vomitted on the road..outside the house,in the bathroom and then went to sleep.
Reasons of drinking beer:
1)Wanted to show off that can drink more
2)Feel my life is like meaningless to continue living
3)SOHAI
Effects:
1)Shamed myself in front of everybody
2)self esteem reduced badly
3)people think i am a drinker
4)STUPID MOFO
5)Never gonna touch beer or liquor

Good things that happen
My housemates treated me very well,especially chandra…always cook some things for me…for example..one night he came up to me with a bowl of pasta…i was hungry for a snack at that time. I was touched when he handed half of his pasta for me….i really wanted more of his..MUAHAHAH..but didn’t cuz kinda pity him…i seldom do things to please him. haiz…My roomate also got offer me dumplings also..aiya…so far most of us in our house all happy happy…got sad and angry moments too.

now….got another problem…my best friend…XXXXX..is in trouble…..really finding many things to try to help him..but he will not accept what i give to him…haiz…come on la…dun need keep status le…people really wanna help you with all my heart k? not look down at you le…NEVER LOOK DOWN AT YOU. i pray that God will guide you out from all this troubles.

things come and go, accept it,live on with it,terminate what that hurts you,happiness comes when u help sumone.

SKYNET COORP WILL BE ESTABLISHED IN 10 YEARS
My last blogpost for this month.

1) channel sadness into motivation to play games or study
2) go out and parkour with chandra
3)chat with housemates and treat them candies,see them smile and feel happy
4)play with mini fountain on table
5)listen music
6)help out in ictc
7)go out and have a drink and sit at lake
8)sleep and think that it will be all-right the nextday
9)hold pillow and lie on bed dreaming
10)disturb housemates
11)Think that she will reply back
12)Don’t give a f*** about other peoples feeling and do own stuff(last resort)

I waited but i did not get any response..guess i have to move on with my life. Even though u like a girl very much,but if she doesn’t like u,its better to give up and be sad for a few days or weeks..and then hope ur heart is cured.impatient?…well…i got nothing much to say..just can’t write what am i feeling right now…imagine u really like a person very much..u done anything u could do just get her attention and make her happy…but in the end…its meaningless.

hehehehehehehehehehahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaahahhaha…………..what to do? this is life…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..and life will just end like this one day……………….! <<die

lately..when i came back from redang i read the newspaper that china was hit by an earthquake, and mynmar hit by cyclone. Many people died…children especially, still so young. Few days ago, i read the star newspaper and i saw a chinese boy holding a saline bag for his friend whose half body is trapped under the rubble. That picture was indeed really touching,it shows what true friendship really is..thats what i feel. Many young children died in china,and parents who have high hopes in their children to bring them a better future is gone. same goes to the poeple in mynmar. People of malaysia, brothers and sisters…even though we may seem busy…at least we pray for their parents who lost their chilld or relatives.

To the soldiers of china,

Every sound you hear below you,
it means there is still hope,
Every stone you remove,
you are reaching closer to the people below,
Every time you bring sumone out,
it brings hope to the people who are still looking for their missing person,
Every sweat you sweat,
it means you have tried your best,
Every time your hand hurts,
it means you are doing all the best you can to save them,
Every people you see grieving over the loss of their love ones,
it doesn’t mean you have failed to save them,
don’t give up, there are many souls left to be saved.

haiz..dunno what am i writing,,,just write…english cacat like hell….haiz…life is really short..that is why must really make good use of it….spend your time with your love ones..like papa and mama…anything can happen.