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Dear blog,
i have been wanting to blog so much when i was at pulau perhentian. On that island, i feel that i was being cut off from my city life, such peace, but at the same time dun have internet…suffer le..haha. There GOT internet but its 30sen per minute…=.= freakin expensive. I went there together with my 2 of my best friends.One of them was my ex-roomate and the other was my 3rd brother(hong yee).Tickets to kelantan was expensive also..Rm30.80. sakit sakit….now i have to babysit my wallet for days…feed it money.The entire trip- i spent about Rm500, Rm350 was for the chalet and the package. Took nearly 8 hours to reach kelantan by bus,and sleeping on the bus is almost impossible due to some idiots who dun know how to switch off their phone….haiz..so inconsiderate.TYPICAL MALAYSIANS. have to hear that lame baby music ringtone the whole night. Kelantan is indeed a nice place to be…but evry single stall,shops and etc..are dominated by muslims.They are nice people^^…especially the malay food there…very difrent from KL.Mamamiya….the curry chicken..taste so good and the keropok lekor…most fishy taste than KL(put more flour)=.=. First, my friend picked me and my brother by car to his house and then ate our breakfast at a malay stall and then headed straight for Kuala besut.Then we took a speedboat to perhentian, so so fun…every time the speedboat goes pass a wave..we would be flying for about 1 sec or sumtimes..1.5sec..the longer we stay midair..the boys in the boat suffer(hehe..when the boat lands…ouch…if sit at the wrong position,golf balls hurts XD)..took about 30 minutes to reach perhentian and we were greeted by our tourist guide..ah long( a skinny black Chinese with a cute face and fluent kelantanese malay). We thought he was a malay until he started talking chinese to us…very funny guy especially when he smiles. The water there was kinda clean compared to port dickson. Ah long than lead us to our chalet…a classic room but with air conditioner and a mini fridge. When i was at the room, i felt that i wanted to sms her, but dang, no line…digi..u let me down again(where is that yellow guy who follow digi users around)…wanna wack the yellow guy so so much…"i will follow you"…lolz…yaya not everywhere. Later we went snorkeling,actually its my first time in a deep sea(not really)…hate it when salt water enters your eyes…argh…the burning sensation and if it enters ur lungs..wow…pain like hell..suffer for awhile…the worst is when my friend hold me down hard when i haven’t catch enough breath…force to take in saltwater. The fishes were kinda scared and a bit playful, they love to swim around my leg and like peck(do fishes peck?) on my wound…make me feel itchy..tried to catch them but can’t even with the bread on my hand. if got net..haha…die lo..i will add the fishes to my bbq list…hmm…fried NEMO’s(clown fish),Fried DORY(blue fish), and other cute small little fishies in da sea =). The first day was kinda tiring..so we slept early. DAY 2- woke up at around 6.00 am then we took our breakfast…(toasted bread with butter,scrambled eggs,beans, and nice cup of tea)…tried to look around for siganl so can sms..but cannot…i told my friend that i confessed to her and i was still waiting for her reply. so they asked me to send her a message asking her whether has she made her decision…sounds kinda desperate..but my friend says its the best way….hope so. Day 2 is sumtin like day 1..snorkeling,beach babes(not much but made us bleed to death when one walks past…guys eyes…are sumhow diffrent from girls..u need to feed em too..lolz…=.=).Saw sea urchins and big big oysters and sea cucumbers(ah long dive down and picked one for us to see…squirts water out..XD). Then we went to redang island, the water there is much cleaner than perhentian, more people, but more dead corals on the shore. Even saw a huge boat bring more than 50-60 people to the island…the boat design kinda look like the D-DAY boat..dunno wats D-DAY(google it:P)…bought some things from the gift shop..and choosing the gifts was the hardest part..i was really choosy when picking the gifts for her..friends got irritated. Bought the most for her…really hope she will like it…most of the gifts have turtle drawings or shapes on it. I love to call her turtle also….haha..for some reason..dunno whether she love to be called that.We went snorkeling most of the time and stop by some other beaches…at one island..my friend buried me under the sand and made some fake sand boobs and ahem…stick d@#$…lame but fun..haha..went back to perhentian at 5pm and then played beach football with some malay people..our team won…cuz me and my fren are super pro^^. Actually the entire stay at the beach..was thinking about her…really really miss her..haiz….oh no…have to go now…mom’s calling..

Dear blog kinda miss you so i wanna blog again:P,
Well…i was looking forward to this day since i booked the ticket back home with the girl that i like. Was so so excited when she agreed to take the bus back with me to KL.I even went to buy the bus ticket alone…i also dunno why. After buying the ticket, questions start popping in my head "will she cancel to go back kl wit me?", "will she say "sorry i decided to stay back"?" and etc. So on that that friday..i woke up so early even the monkeys in the house are still sleeping..haha..:P..got dressed and then i woke chandra up…he is my hairstylist for that day..i use to use gel to spike my hair..but chndra recommended me to use wax. He made my hair look kinda natural and nice, while iyngran was in charge of my attire…well i pick up fav clothes and iyngran decided that my clothes is way too simple..so he decide to modify it..but unfortunatey..i stick to my choice. Left the hostel at around 9 am and reach old town kampar at around 9.30 am. That morning i really feel relaxed and excited. so i went to a nearby bread shop and grab a sandwich and a  packet drink. She cam e at exactly 10 am…then she smsed me saying she already reached….i was chomping down my sandwich like a monster when the msg arrive…i started to get nervous a bit…cuz at that time my mouth was full with sandwich..so i smed her and told her that i was at one of the bus station office….that moment i just feel that sumone was looking at me..so i turn back and i saw her…she was holding her phone..and looking straight at me….(luckily i gulped down that big part of sandwich or else i will look like a hamster keeping kuachi seeds in my mouth.)…its been almost 4 months since we went out together…and she looks almost the same but cuter:P..most of the time i only focus on her eyes and i actually kinda forget wat she wear on that day…zzz. Realizing that i was eating the sandwich by my own…i felt kinda bad..so i asked her whether she had taken her breakfast..and then she said no and i took her to the bread shop that i just went. she bought the same sandwich as me…and well..we ended both munching on our sandwich. well she ate faster than me…lolz.
we then chatted till the bus come…and during the journey to KL..i talked about my housemates…and she did talk a lot too about herself,exams, and etc. I booked a sit for two people but the person gave me a ticket that sat beside each other but with a big gap n between..i dun really mind about that but as long as i keep her speaking and telling more about herself.As usual, i talke the most..and i blabbered  a lot of  my stories…i was always telling myself" lawrence u talk too much, just let her talk" well…she did talk..quite a lot on that day and i notice that she smiled a lot on that day…everytime she smiled, i jst felt happy, really really happy. WE reached K at about 1.30 pm and took a bus to Mid valley…cuz she told me in the bus that she miss Ronald mcdonald(the clown with bid red shoes,i use to have shoes exactly like ronald when i was a kid) a lot….i mean mcdonalds. i ordered big mac for her and for myself too…we talked about one of our friends…known as the tomato ketchup monster. i can’t really tell much here but at that time..i just felt like telling her sumting…that i have kept so long..but the inner me was saying" lawrence she will slap you and stuff that BIG MAC into ur mouth and walk away". so i did not confess to her. >.<…after that we went tto the arcade center to play the game we played lastime…dun really remember the name of that FPS game..but it requires teamwork…she is kinda good in games but well i am sumhow better than her(maybe…hehe)..then the remaing coins, i told her to choose which softtoy she wanted to get in one of the gaming machines..for 4 times i tried but the darn machine wun get the softtoy out..i felt bad cuz i did not get what she wanted..i really wanted to continue but i know the harder i try will only make me a dumb guy in front of her(seriosly..i played that game many times in my life and never even win ONCE..crap=.=)…we later went bowling but we have to waot for quite some time….cuz there was too many people…i remember shhe was telling a joke and it made me laugh..but forget wat was it adey..lol..i bought 2 games so we could like play longer. Her shoes was kinda tiny…i mean something like Cinderella shoes..quite small while mine was the size of big foot…during the first round..she missed a lot..all masuk longkang..haha including me also but only one lucky strike shot..every time i hold the bowling ball…i was prying" hope she doesn’t feel bored"..
until now i dun really know how she was feeling at that moment..but she just played like normal..but i think she was feeling kinda bored…i should have throw myself to the pins and make her laugh…=.=. everytime she misses, i would always praise her to go for another shot..cuz i really didn’t want her to feel bored. She did win me by a few points during mid game but i won at the last part=.=..shyt..i dun wanna win actually..i wanted her to win. Well after that we went back to mcd and i treated her wit ice cream…again i got the feeling of telling her how i feel but i kept myslef from saying it. I was not scared to tell her..but scared of the consequences..like friendship will be gone so suddenly..my fellings towards is growing since the first time i saw her at the math’s class. Actually wanetd to take her to watch movie, but her mom called her up so she had to go. When she was leaving, i was saying to myself "lawrence u just missed a once in a lifetime chance to tell her ur feelings, and u can just forget about it,sume other guys will take her"..well my mood changed so rapidly until  i even had no mod to go home..so i walked around mid valley for awhile and toook a bus straight home. When i reached home, i just decided to took the final decision to tell her how i feel, welll i did…and when i was waiting for a reply..my heart was punding so freakin fast that i wanted to just reach in and just stop it. she replied that she will see first. I did feel a little dissapointed and a bit happy though…now i am just waiting for her decision. I dun really want to think more about it but i  just hope for the best. i dun even know did i really did the right thing or was i too fast?….maybe becuz i seldom see her and alomost evry single day will be thinking about her…love is blind…but to me..this case really diffrent…tired adey…feel like wanna sleep now…bye blog..maybe write more again tomorrow.

hiya..once again..i am updating my lame blog that no one reads..
Dear blog,
This sure is one best semester in my entire life and also the worst. Yesterday just finished all of my exams..felt much better but still suffering from the side effects of not sleeping for almost 3 days. In this semester, many things happen…many bad and good things. I even get to know my roommate darkest secret…haha…wun post it here..XD..most of our housemates share the pain and sweet memories together.
one of my best friends even broke up with his girlfriend..they really look like a couple which can’t be separated..but still…DAMN…the girl started it. My friend cried over her for a few days…i knew that he loved her very much just by doing a face reading..that pain i have even felt it before..very pain and unbearable..losing sumone who meant so much to you..so so so much. haiz…we spent days trying to cheer him ip and indeed our efforts paid off…he was back to his usual normal…but much active like before..like a monkey..=.=. We even have small fights in our house..sumtin like dislike each others habits and the way we talk to one another…haha..my roommate gets pissed off everytime after eating finish my lunch..i will throw my lunchbox in the thrash..he said i have to fold it and then throw..haha..guess i am still trying my best to change my habit. Our housemate sam..also have minor changes on him eversince some people in our hose started ignoring him because indulge too much in games(DOTA)..=.=..haiz…anyway this problem is solved..we were back to our usual happy go luck monkeys of 1519 =). haha. sam is a very good person and somehow sensitive..same like me too^^…but we can overcome our problems easily..cuz we are superman of 1519. Chandra is like a brother to me…the things he do sumtimes really touched me..really really grateful for wat he has done. he just wakes up in the middle of the night just to make me a cup of coffee and encourage me to study. as for my roomate candy…haha..he is a funny guy although serious at times..and sumtimes cute…he is one of the best roommates i ever had..very understanding person and loving also…like anothe close brother to me. oh ya and one more thing he is like our KETUA KEBERSIHAN of our house…haha..Basically in our whole house 1519..we are always GAY..YEA GAY..means happy la. Sanjaya is like a wise man…ask him anything related to DOTA..and poof u get ur answer…he is also a very caring and understanding..he is another brother of mine who stays up late at night..to play games or watch hentai anime..haha no la…Bleach. Iyngran…zzz, more like a younger brother to me..haha..we love to tease and irritate poepl in the house especially winston and Ong(Datuk 1519). Ong is more like a father to me..not exactly it depends on the situation..sometimes he gives really good advise to me..but sometimes is just crap..lol…a very good person with humor..as for Q..he is more like a close brother also..except for his LAME attitude…the laugh and the smile he always give me when he feels he is the king of dota..zzzz..nice guy with a 50cent haircut..haha. As for me, well…i really changed a lot this semester..especially the way i speak..i wish i could be like my old self…did badly in this semester..haiz..my mood is changing rapidly this semester this year…anyway the next semester i will be a diffrent person…^^..i will go back to My LORD whom i have ignored for so long…i am reallly looking ahead of my next semester..A NEW ME, A NEW SUPERMAN. better make sure it happens…bye blog..it will be a long time i will update you again..sobs..

just came back from talent night(one of UTAR’s big event "maybe"), i first sign up as a helper but really wanted to be the emcee…:( but sadly..was not chosen maybe i was too short)…3 of my house mates all went for the emcee audition too but sadly non of them were chosen..ngek ngek ngek. Anyway being a helper was not that bad after all..although what i did was stick the plastic bags to cover the hall windows, guard the doors, and wash the plates. I do gain some experience by watching the junior committee members preparing for the event. Not that organized but still okok lo. The president look very cool and yeng…the rest of committee  member a bit cacat except the decorations manager(serena)…and their gang…they really hard working..and really put a lot of effort into making this talent nigh a success. oh ya and also my security manager..pang(really nice guy and very dedicated to his job)..he even stay back to clean the tables…how i wish i was like him..actually i also  a bit sama dengan dia..but i am lazier..kekeke. Overall the performance of the contestants was quite good especially one of my classmates MENG chee(diabolo pro)…did many cool stunts. ..too tired to continue..haiz..i will be having a meeting with my script kiddies teem next week…many work need to be done..looks like the network security of UTAR isn’t that good yet( the admins are really fast learners* super pro) but eventually soon we will find a way..to get in.
sending my YO’s to my buddies and my little brother. Daniel didi..u study hard for BM k.

Find my life at Kampar quite fun and a bit stressed compared to when i was in foundation. Well i am so lucky to have housemates like chandra, sanjaya,ong,wintson,sam,wing,Kew and my roomate candy. My time here at kampar seems tough to me, because i liked a girl so much and ended up we did not talk to each other. My friends really help me a lot to go through this extreme sadness i went through, although it kinda help, but sometimes it hurt real bad when i think back. But i have learn a lesson.."never ever help a person who won’t appreciate what you have done"….hmm..depending on the situation la..if he/she very kasihan than help. Miss my little brother Daniel a lot..daniel ar..if u reading my blog..i come home wack you with my pillow.^^ study hard k daniel..kor kor love you very much..same to you KOR KOR raymond.

3/12/2007
sanjaya,chandra,candy and me planned to go kampar on saturday…but the tickets were sold out..so we decided to go on sunday..woke up at around 8.30am and sat a bus to MC and reach there about  9.00 am..sanjay wasn’t there because he had things to do…as i walk in MC i started to think about her again..that made me sigh..cuz what i am hoping won’t come true….(love is just too painful and girls are complicated). Candy came down 4 minutes right after i call him..he looked tired..we then took a bus to pudu and waited for chandra..when i was in pudu i start thinking of her again and it always brings my mood down(sad) but i decided to not to spoil candy and chandra’s wonderful day as they were busily chit chatting with one another. We boarded the bus at around 10.10am and the bus left the station at 10.30am..it was my first time sitting an express bus..quite comfortable but no television T.T…so i and chandra talked about politics while candy read my CCNA book…when i hand him the book,i predicted that he will sure fall asleep..and it really happen..happens to me most of the time^^. On the way to kampar, the bus stopped at one of the rest stations..all of us got down and get some refreshments..at the same time we have to relieve our little brothers due to extreme water pressure…i bought TWISTIES,and candy bought ROller coasters but chandra bought a ping pong biscuit…he told us that it was his favorite food since his childhood..that snack looks exactly like a ping pong ball(larger a bit)..mmmm..but the best part of all..coated with caramel..i think so..but its so so nice..DANG.i din take a picture of the food. We reach kampar old town at about 12.00pm and we took our lunch there..we ate char kueh teow..not really that nice because its mostly burnt food(carbon kueh teow..only available at kampar old town and just cost you RM3.00..enjoy the rich taste of carbon!^^)..but what brings hell to this journey to kampar is that we dun have a ticket back to KL…its a sunday..and all tickets to KL are sold(zzz)..chandra realized he should have bought the 2 way ticket..haha..its not his fault anyway..he and Candy contributed a lot to make this an unforgettable trip.
We then took a bus  to new town..the bus that we sat on reminds me of my primary school days…its a cool classical looking bus with no air conditioner just big sliding windows..when we reach new town kampar..we have to walk 20 minutes to westlake…i still feel pain in my feet(the entire journey….guess i am use to it)….we then went in westlake to have a look at the rooms..its now fully furnished compared to the last time when i went there it was still empty…i guess ching ching and their friends will be lucky to get such a nice place to stay..i was thinking of renting a room with candy at westlake..but we found a better place just outside westlake very comfy place and convenient(hope so)..but i am not sure which place to rent because i have to think of my  friend joselyn..lately..many of her friends try to avoid her..i just dun understand why…joselyn is such a nice person,understanding…but people call her weird…i feel sorry for her when her friends talk about her at the back..i am just worried that if i rent the same house with chandra and candy…i can’t really help monitor and take care of her..its my duty as a friend when ching mao is not there for 4 months… haiz…i just get it why her friends all start to avoid her…there must be some BASTARD gossiping about her…if u are one of them reading this…come on..joselyn has personal problems..try to be understanding..she is willing to build up the friendship with u all again…FORGIVE AND FORGET…if u all dun like the way she talk to you all..just tell it to her and she will change(give others a chance).. wish could talk more about this..but it may get too sensitive..and cause trouble. i actually thought of staying with the girl that i like but what made me stop is i think she likes another guy…i am happy for her though but i feel sad..time will recover my wounds….and during this time GOD will also strengthen me within.
anyway everywhere we walk near westlake…we can see dungs anywhere…Candy also found a nice pancaked shape Dung near grand kampar hotel..(he has the cool photos..haha…we then spend one hour in a cyber cafe called "IMAX"..we thought it was an IMAX theater in kampar..wah..if got..then cool le…can watch movie during free time. when it was about 8.00 pm we sat a bus to medan gopeng hoping that we could catch a bus back to KL..the journey to medan gopeng was fun…it was the classical bus again..candy loves to ask many questions to the bus conductor while chandra talks to the bus driver in tamil…chandra can be a good translator and candy can be a good questioner..haha..when we reach medan gopeng…the bus tickets to KL were sold out..we were dumbfounded at that time…candy was like(OMG…first time stranded in an unknown place and chandra was laughing and saying how silly we were to get stranded)…we took long walks near the highway and sat down at the highway traffic light…candy went crazy..he started to wave at cars that stop at the traffic lights…seeing him do like that makes chandra and me laugh…i also sat down plucking off plant seeds that stuck to my pants and shoes..at the same time i was thinking of her almost every time…the hardest part was finding a place to sleep..chandra suggested that we sleep at MCD..but man it was really hard to sleep..all of us was shocked to see little kids age ranged between3-5 playing at the MCD play ground till 2am!..man IPOH people are night walkers…even at 3 am MCD has many customers..mostly youngsters…chandra was the baby sitter the entire night..he didin’t even sleep at all..he just stayed up all night drinking MCD coffee(dunno how many times he refilled)…candy and i at least manage to get a sleep around 2 hours..haiz…kinda tired now and feeling really down..guess i will continue writing next week or tomorrow..

16/11/2007

smiles seem to be fading away from my face…

yesterday was suppose to be my Stress-free day after completing most of the assignment.(sumone:"wtf lawrence u still repeat foundatin ar??,why still doing assignment..",me:" yea i am still resitting my foundations…for my frens..becuz frens are important to me,sumone:"oo, i tot u still resit",me:"in your f###ing dreams")…was suppose to be at utar at 3 pm to meet the girl..but unfortunately the bus that i took move slower than usual…so i reached ss2 around 3.15 and then i receive an sms from the girl that i like..i didn’t want her to wait that long for me to pass her the assignment..so i decided to take the cab..halfway out of ss2 was caught in a jam(super DEADLOCK JAM),cars were smelling one anothers ass…so i couldn’t wait and paid the cab and wore on my skates..halfway down the ss2 road,i was going at moderate speed..a car came nearby me..realising that it will hit my skates i quickly jamned on my skates break but i know it wouldn’t work..i even thought of trying the fullstop..even though i know i had no choice cause the damn car was driving nearer..so i was force to do it…(sucesfully dodge the cars tyres but my right skates slips and my right feet went bending outwards,a sharp pain shot through my ankle…wow..its like a knife slicing through my bones,tendon and meat)…i stopped for a while to check my ankle..i tot it was alright to go on so i skate down the slope at 40km/h…and one point..when i start to push my right skates to gain momentum..damn..the pain came back..so i stopped at a house to lookat my anke..it was like a ping pong ball..knowing that i have to reach my uni as fast as possible..i had to get help quick..but my right feet just won’t budge…so i tried to flag down a few passers-by..but they dun seem to care..i was unable to move to the other side of the road..it was just too pain..and it was jammed badly too..and the only way to reach there in time was by a motorcycle..i have to walk about 300m to reach a spot where there were many motorcyclist passing by..no one seems to care when i signal for help..guess i am just silly to skate in ss2 to reach to utar as soon as possible…well..eventually a kind motorcyclist picked me up and sped me to utar..i just can’t seem to find anything to thank that chinese guy..he don’t even want to acept my cash reward(may God bless him his entire life)…

17/11/2007

went to utar today to help out sumone…she adviced me to stay at home becuz she knew my leg wouldn’t get better if i keep walkin around..but i didn’t listen to her..because i know she and her group may need help….actually i was feeling down since yesterday because of something i would not state here..that pain in my heart is just bringing my mood down bad..usually whenever i see her..i would be happy…but now…whenever i see her i just feel sad(its not that i dun like her,i really like her)…i always think that she doesn’t like me…yep and my mood just plunge down to bad…i would just sit quietly in my room..and dun talk to my mom like i used too…i just dun feel normal anymore..maybe i am scared to lose her….but whenever i feel down, i always to tell myself at least i should try and make her happy..then it will be alright..sometimes i think that i am not important to her…i dunno what am i thinking..my mind is going haywire..can’t seem to focus on hacking..i just keep thinking of her…I want to be my past who used to have the determination to move on no matter what happens..but its fading away…but i know sumehow..i will get it back…as long as i recover from love sick…hope so..i dun want people to look down on me again.

Today,during lunch i and my frens went to section 14 to take our lunch..everything went well..until one of my friends lost his wallet in the bus when he was coming back..when he notice that he lost his wallet he started chasing the bus…i know it was a bad idea to run after taking meals…so i was worried about him too..my another fren then followed him…i really wanted to follow too..but i was walking really slow so i decided to wait in the uni…while my another friend kok hee..was busy finding the wallet elsewhere(seeing kok hee finding yi gang wallet, made me think that kok hee was not just a guy with good grades,or a proud person..he actually cares about his friends..that made me smile..hoping that he will find back his wallet)..but unfortunately he came back with a tired face…but my another friend who lost his wallet..came back crying…i was shocked to see him cry..he use to be cheerful and playful but a wallet made him cry..i was a little worried and then wondered why would he be crying over a wallet…i then asked him and he told me that he was not really crying over the wallet but how careless and useless he felt..i felt sad for him too..because i was like him when i was in primary i used to cry behind the canteen  no one watches me…i used to be in the second last in grades..becuz i was too playfu(fark)…but i am more different than him..he was smarter and hardworking…well i am the opposite=.= . when he stopped crying we went for a walk near the library..i was glad to see his smile come back before i went home…i hate to see my friends go sad especially my best friends…

when i went home,i became mody again…also have problems uploading the assignment..I JUST DUN UNDERSTAND WAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH THAT HOSTING WEBSITE!!..spend 2 hours adey….haiz..stilldoing currently…today my mom was the plates for me after dinner..i think she noticed that my mood was down..and then she gave me a smile..i was cheered up a bit to have sucha caring mummy..=)

I am writing this blog today cuz i am BORED….well,today went to utar to do some web page design and after that went to the hallway to find the girl that i like but she wasn’t there..awww T.T…such dissapointment..one of the reason to come to utar is to look at her only..saw her in the morning but i walk away cuz i was scared that she might be busy and dun wanna disturb her…so i then talked to her friend and then my fav math lecturer came…he came with a big smile(or a big grin on his face)..haha..i am not sure but i tot he was gonna say "why are you here?,nothin to do ar?"..but i was surprised when he say " you like a girl ar?"..man i was SUPER SPEECHLESS..and the inside me was like wanna bang my head hard against the wall and was wondering how he know that…LOL..then  he asked me about the course i am taking..so he then gave me an advise saying that i should take the course which go to kampar straight and study the rest myself..(hmm..a good advise..thx^^)..but i think that my math lecturer looks a bit lonely..kinda pity him…i just wonder why women wun go after my math lecturer(such a nice guy,open minded,cool at times,so smart,quite handsome,but sumtimes lame) like me la(but i am much lamer =.=)…..maybe one day he will get a muCH BETTER BABE than the previous one..aiyo i better not state.LOL….sum girls are picky,sum guys too…but wats most important is the heart…well..to me..the girl that i like hmm….to me she isn’t that pretty(OOPS!) but i am not handsome(OUCH!) but wats make her really pretty is her humble attitude…+.+…makes her cuter and prettier. haiz……..but the problem is me myself..no balls(bo chi)…always act lame in front of her…

well its been a long time i didn’t write my blog, was kinda lazy and my life was kinda my daily activities is like repeating over and over. well..i have 3 months of holiday and its VERY BORING…but at least i have more time to upgrade my self in computer knowledge like hacking…..many things happen this new semester to my junior frens…they look more serious and look more motivated to score better in their exam. Most of the time go to utar just to see my friends, try to find out utar server flaws and just to help the girl that i like… Our hacking group seems to get much interesting this semester and a bit of progress..we done a lot of cool stuff..haha…but du wanna state here…(secret) only my best friend hong yee, yi gang and peat knows. oh ya..back to the title…why i hate working life…six WORDS.."COWA BANGA PIECE OF DOG SHIT"..man i starter working in one bakery shop(won’t state it), i wanted to work there becuz i tot i can like learn how to bake some freakin cakes…and like gain experience..well..I went to work this morning at 7.30 am..and the boss brief me about the rules and regulation and ask me to clean the windows(ok this job is tiring but its fine for me,cuz i am a superhero^^.. yea=.=)..after that went to pack some buns in plastic and arrange the buns..then the rest is FULL OF CRAP AND A WASTE OF TIME…i was told to stand at the door and greet the customers for 3.5 hours(WTF),saying "good morning"(and then handsthe customer the tray) then "thank you,please come again"(smiles like a LAME KID)…COME ON MAN,I WANT MORE CHALLENGE,like baking some cookies in da oven help around not standing at the door and greeting customers..I dun even care whether the customer is a beatiful babe or some ROBOT customer(no expression,walks in the shop like terminator even when i greet them)..come on man…just that smile would motivate me…THATS THE F***ING problem with people,they dun give thanks to BLUE COLLARS..F***ing PROUD PEOPLE…wat i learn from this job is to appreciate my time,my precious moments i spend with my frens and the person i like,(when working, i felt like i lost all my freedom.T.T), i wanna try my best to make my parents proud liao..I HATE WORKIN LIFE…but the problem now is my degree course…i wanna go kampar..if not ..i will lose contact withe da girl i like…but my mom said studies more important..but she is my source of motivation….zzzz….life is filled with challenges.. i pray to god that i will go through all of them. same goes for my frens^^.

Yesterday just complted my math exam..i resited the paper for many times..hehe..kinda lame..because i lazy and alaws play game..but during the study week,i and my friend keng guan put most of our time studying at mc.When i feel bored, both of us will go out of our balcony and do lame faces to the other girls opposite our block.This time i think i will pass my math..i really hope so. actually, i kinda hated math because mostly it is confusing to me. i also use to dislike my math teacher..but lately my math teacher changed a lot..and now i think he is one of the best math teacher that ever thought me. during the exam, he came at me and said "dun cry like last time"..when i heard that i felt shy. But the smile on my math teachers face told me taht he still have confidence in me.I really tried my best in my math test..though its kinda bad.. I used to think that my math teacher always look down on me(the way he looked at me lastime),and i didn’t like it..but now i realise he wanted me to change. From this experience.I learned that i musn’t judge someone’s trueself just by looking at his face. Most of all, i just can’t find anymore words to thank this math lecturer…i am sure he has inspired many students..and i just hope that Utar will give more bonus to him^^.